damn it, damn it, damn it
why?
how?
drew just randomly goes nuts a week ago and were all supposed to move on?
he was fine until now
what the fuck even happened?
i know his deadbeat dad went nuts too
but drew told me that was underlying and was only triggered after he turned old
and he had suffered from years of psychosis before that
did drew just snap? without any signs?
no, there would at least be some signs of delusion
drugs?
no, thats not like him
god
why him, of all people
the last week has been so damn heavy
i dream of him coming back and hopping on the couch and playing a game with me
it just makes me wake up feeling worse
i feel so god damn alone
stranded
it hurts
i know theres something else
but what?
this kind of shit doesnt just "happen"
i know it wasnt just some sort of "random coincidence"
...
he left his computer on
maybe i could figure something out by looking through it
couldnt hurt to try